Days pass quickly now. It feels like barely a week ago that darkness still descended a tad too early for my liking, but now the sky holds light much longer. The whirlwind of time seems to rush by around us, whether we move from square one or not.
I've lately been wondering about my own competence. More specifically, questioning whether I've been 'losing sight' of the big picture. 'Mental incontinence,' I call it - when I actually spend time wondering about my own wonderings and whether the balance sheet hasn't been trampled by my wandering thoughts. In fact, I often reach a level (e.g. now) when the stream of mental diarrhoea becomes completely incoherent to a sane person, who would probably label me a 'poncy git.'
What might have triggered such intense soul-searching?
As with all things, let's revisit the basics. Hobbits. Sentimentalism. A borrowed CD of the Lord of the Rings soundtrack. Ahhhh...the pieces of the puzzle suddenly seem to materialise. Specifically, "Track 17: The breaking of the fellowship (In Dreams)" with that really hauntingly beautiful ending sung by Edward Ross.
When the cold of winter comes
Starless night will cover day
In the veiling of the sun
We will walk in bitter rain
But in dreams
I can hear your name
And in dreams
We will meet again
When the seas and mountains fall
And we come, to end of days
In the dark I hear a call
Calling me there,
I will go there
And back again
The lyrics might not make any sense to you, but at this present time they are a balm to my completely scrunched up mental state. Unfortunately, this analgesic seems to inflame my thoughts even more...
My next post shall be decidedly less self-expository. Perhaps a good old gripe about something will make for a welcome change...
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